When You Find Yourself Crying on the Bathroom Floor | A Guest Post
This is a guest post from Alesia of A Bottle of Sanity. Thank you Alesia for sharing your battle with postpartum depression. Always consult a doctor with any medical concerns, especially with mental health. The information on this page is not intended to treat, diagnose, or cure any illness, it is here solely for informational purposes.
I dealt with postpartum depression after having my son almost three years ago. Now that I am pregnant with baby #2, I want to be as proactive as possible with my anxiety and depression.
I went in to get my hair cut recently and I was talking to my stylist about postpartum depression, because I believe it is a topic everyone should discuss. She had her daughter over 20 years ago but she remembers struggling with depression and anxiety. She was in a bad relationship and found herself stressed out. She looks back on that time in her life, wishing that she had gotten help. I find myself in the same situation.
My mom would call me during those first few weeks asking me how I was doing. My response was always, “I’m waiting for the mom to show up and take her kid home. I’m tired.” I honestly regretted being a mom. I was sad all the time. It was difficult to express my depression to other people because I felt like such a terrible parent.
There are a few things I want you to know about my journey through postpartum depression, because YES, I MADE IT THROUGH!
You are not alone
So, you’ve given birth to this little miracle and suddenly you don’t feel like yourself.
I felt so alone in those months (8 to be exact) of postpartum depression. I found myself crying on the floor of my closet. The crying and the sleeping never felt like it would end. There were days when I thought my life was over. And honestly, there were days I wished my life was over.
Maybe you feel that way too. Perhaps you are reading this on the floor of your closet. I want to tell you that you are not alone in this.
I have been there. And other women have been there.
Get the help you need
I never got the help I needed when I had my son. I don’t want to make that mistake again.
There are therapist and mental health coaches out there who want to help you. Sometimes even another mom can help.
I’m two months away from baby #2 and I am already setting myself up for success. I will be going through a 60 day selfcare coaching session to make sure that I have someone to talk to about my depression and anxiety. I’m already predisposed to those feelings so I want to make sure I have the help I need to make it through victorious this time.
Self-care can be helpful
When most people think of self-care, they usually think that means you have to take an hour of your time and go get your nails done. That’s all dandy, but self-care is so much more than that.
What helps lessen your anxiety? Do you journal? Enjoy a nice bath? Sit on the porch drinking a hot tea? Taking time for yourself… even five to ten minutes… can make such a difference. Sometimes when I’m feeling down, self-care just looks like a list of things I am grateful for. It is important that you find the thing that makes you feel like you. If that is a manicure then you have permission to get that manicure!
You are not alone in your depression, anxiety, and postpartum depression. (click to tweet!) I’ve been there. Many women have been there before me. It is important that you get the help you need and deserve. If you feel like your friends or husband doesn’t understand how you feel, don’t give up. Don’t be deterred by that. Everyone processes things differently.
Take time for you! Self-care and self-love are so important during this season of your life. You are giving so much to this new little person in your life and you cannot keep giving from an empty cup. Love on yourself. Let those around you love on you. Don’t be afraid to ask for help.
And honestly, if you ever need someone to talk to, you can send me a message. I don’t want you to feel that you are alone in this, because you are not.
Meet the Author
Alesia is a working mom who fights her way through life, depression, and just plain stupidity. She strives to show others that it is possible to be a boss while you feel like you're losing your mind. A Bottle of Sanity is a space in which working moms may find easy recipes, parenting tips, and sanity.